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Friday, June 29, 2018

ulangtahun pertama.

daun2 gugur tumbuh berganti,
mawar di laman bertukar cambah,
hari berganti hari,
umur bertarik tali, 
segalanya berlaku dalam sekelip,
entah sedar kita, entah tidak.

ulangtahun pertama.
susuk dan roh ini bergelar suami untuk sekian tahun pertama.
dalam cacat cela, patah riuk kerangka ini terus saja berdoa, terus meminta.
agar tuhan mencukupkan buat isteri segala.
agar terubat hati yg terluka,
agar tidak bergenang air mata,
agar terhapus segala resah rasa,


ulangtahun pertama.
sudah jelas kita kenal sama dan beza kita.
agar dapat kita menutup cela,
agar kita berbagi cinta dan rasa.
agar sama memaafkan kurang yang ada.


ulangtahun pertama.
usah kita berjanji yang tiada pasti.
biar saja kepada Tuhan kita menanti.
dalam pengharapan kita berserah diri.
untuk kini, jua esok hari.







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Wednesday, June 20, 2018

baik.

dalam tiap2 kurnian allah kepada kita,
ada bahagiannya utk yang lain,
maka ada andai kata adik beradik atau kenalan meminta bantu, ringan2kan lah bahagian kita, setakat termampu
kita tak rugi, kalau tidak dibalas manusia,
Allah pasti ada perancangannya,
kalau bukan hari ini, mungkin esok, atau mungkin di akhirat kelak.


harap2 juga kebaikan kita dapat menghapuskan dosa2 kita yang sering kita lakukan dalam sedar atau tidak, dengan insaf atau tidak.
kita nih neraka itu pasti, syurga saja masih belum pasti milik kita.
bnyakkan kebaikan, jangan pernah rasa cukup.
kita tidak tahu mana satu yang jadi sebab kita ke syurga.

harap2 juga kebaikan kita makin hari2 makin menangkis tompok2 hitam hati kita,
yang mungkin pernah riak, takbur, ujub.


harap2 juga kebaikan kita ikhlas,
tapi jangan kerana takutkan ketidakikhlasan, kita menjauhi kebaikan.
semua perlu latihan, begitu jua ikhlas.


jadi sama2 kita banyakkan kebaikan,
dikit demi dikit,
hari demi hari,
sampai nyawa terhenti.





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Wednesday, May 30, 2018

departure.


when you learned to accept things preordained for you.
your heart will ease.
your foots are ready to depart.
knowing that by hook or by crook, it is your scheme of life.
that was already written even before you were born.
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Friday, May 25, 2018





in life. at some point somehow we will be really tested at our weakest point.
thus, instead of ask allah to get rid all our obstacles, let we pray for allah make us strong and wholeheartedly accepting.

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Tuesday, May 1, 2018

destiny.

the windows curtain is slowly opened,
allowing the rays of sunlight touching the coldness of the hotel room,
the drizzle disperse the sunrays lightly
it is warm on the skin, but yet cold inside.
the last night cup of coffee is still there on the side table, its surface is solidly rigid.
and the breath sound break the silence,
awaken the dying soul from deep inside.


it's cold outside.
it's cold inside.


it's ok for you to cry sometimes.
It's ok to feel totally hopeless
it's ok to be sunken in grief sometimes.
when everything seems against you.
but let the sorrow stay there only just for a while.

then, when time comes.
the loosened strength must be build up again.
the scattered beliefs must be gathered again.
the blurry path must be mended again.

Life is what we perceived
if only bitterness we see.
then we will be blinded to realize other blessings.
if we keep calculating what we don't have.
then we are loosing every single other thing.

~~
the short journey has ended.
the bed sheet is neatly put.
the pen ink is already finished.
the note reach the last word.
the hotel room door is shut tightly.
and the step is drgged slowly.


what we have right now is what it is.
accepting it is the best way to cope.
let it the be blood that flows in you vein.
let it be the air you breath in.
let it be us and ourselves.
and be grateful and thankful

just because,
we are the destiny that we cannot anymore deny.




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